My husband is a recovering drug addict, and he has had some horrible delusions while high. However, he has been having delusions again, and I am 95% sure that he has been completely clean for 4 months. I am now under the conclusion that he has a mental illness that increases his psychosis when he does drugs. Nobody has been able to tell because he's never been clean this long. If he does, it's really sad that his family has never contemplated the idea...they just thought he was a no-good drug addict. It's been really bad lately, and I've almost left him...but I keep thinking if I can just get him help, maybe it will be okay. I made an appointment, but because we only have Medicaid, it will be 2 months. It was so bad the other day that I even tried to have him committed, but I couldn't go through with it. I'm not sure if mental illness runs in his family; he was adopted. But I am 17 weeks pregnant.... Here's my question: Are delusions common for people with bipolar? I'm even worried he might be schizophrenic. How can I tell the difference? And does medication really help? Here's a list of his delusions and symptoms...
- Believes that I make porn videos. Showed me a video of "myself" that was clearly not me
- Thinks I can control his phone with an app on my phone
- Turns his phone off or even throws it away because he thinks people are tracking him
- Thinks I am cheating on him with people I don't even know and has threatened to harm these people
- Has seen people running away from the house that weren't
- Has heard my phone ringing when it wasn't
- Has heard me having a conversation (and told me about the conversation in great detail) when I wasn't even talking
- Believed that the rug had been covered in mud one night (when it wasn't) and that I had hurried to clean it the next day
- Heard the neighbors across the road talking about him. He heard the guy (who I don't even know) say that he was in love with me and was supposed to move in with me when I kicked my husband out
- Thought I had a girlfriend who was living in the basement
- Dropped me in front of my class and waited there until I got out. He still though I had sneaked off somewhere else.
- Accused me of being on drugs (I'm pregnant and do not have addiction problems) and forced me to take a drug test (that I passed)
- Though I was drugging/poisoning him
- Thought that I had quit my job and had not been going to work when I left the house
- Has threatened suicide
- Extreme bouts of anger - busted my locked door open
- Complains of his head being jumbled, racing thoughts and being wired
- He either can't sleep or he sleeps all day
- Has a sense of entitlement. I'm not sure if I believe him when he apologizes. He begged to come home when I threw him out so I told him he could stay on the couch.He had no where else to go. He became very angry and paranoid again when I locked him out of the bedroom.
Can any one relate?? I just don't know how to react anymore or how to deal with this behavior. I am completely drained.