I find you amazing, everybit of advise you have ever given to me has always helped. there is nothing wrong with wanting to be possitive for someone else. i understand how hard it is to get out all you feel, i post very rarely only when i need to feel conected to the outside world,sounds kind of selfish when i put it that way,but i am new to bp and anxiety and ocd,so i look to people like you for comfort, advice any response to know that things will be ok...i am sorry that you are having such a hard time and i wish i knew exactly what to say to help...my heart is with you, hope all is well soon...Jen