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Old Apr 17, 2016, 11:06 AM
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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte View Post
I don't really have any memories as a child regarding my issues now relating to mood...

However, I was always anxious (I always had stomach aches because of it) and felt lonely and different. Like I was the kid standing at the edge of the play ground during recess in elementary school, staring down the road and wanting to go home. That's one of my first memories.
Me too. Severe anxiety as far back as I can remember. And I couldn't relate to other kids...I was shy and a nerd, reading literally all of the time.

It's hard to detangle bipolar from my less than ideal childhood, but I do remember being extremely depressed right after my dad died (of course). Fifth and sixth grade were hell, but suddenly, in seventh grade, it all went away. I started being outgoing and happy, making friends more easily, participating in the school play, etc. just out of nowhere. That lasted for about a year and a half before it all came crashing down in eighth grade. Was I hypomanic? Probably not. But it was interesting that I just suddenly stopped feeling depressed and anxious.
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