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Old Apr 17, 2016, 12:38 PM
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Marylin Marylin is offline
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This is the emotion that consumes me at times.I am afraid of so many things,not being able to physically do things,get chores done,look after myself is my number one fear.Then the fear of dying.I also fear getting involved with a man who turns violent and controlling versus fear of being alone forever.I think i'd rather be alone than live with a violent man.

Other fears involve my cats dying and me losing them,my mother dying,then I am all alone in the world with absolutely no one to turn to if I need someone.
I can't stand that thought,cos then my sister will be my nearest relative and she tried to kill me twice,she sabotaged my home and argued non stop ,played mind games to drive me to suicide,so the prospect of her being the only one left fills me with dread!My mother is 86 so it is certain I will face this someday.

Fear even follows me through everyday interactions,I have social anxiety so fear strangers,I fear getting the taxi to go anywhere,I fear traipsing round the supermarket, I fear getting the lawnmower out to cut the grass,I fear being alone at home,I fear the postman knocking on the door.I fear all the above on quite a few days of the month.Other times I do it without fear but the solitude hurts a lot too.
I go back and forth between fear and loneliness.The only cure for the fear is love,when I feel love from others the fear evaporates.When I am with my niece who I love and whom loves me I feel no fear,except perhaps the fear that one day I will lose her.

How do others here cope with fear and loneliness?
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