it is a dynamic that isn't enacted outside therapy
and yet, of course, it is.
he asked me about the boards today.
the theraputic window.
whether there was an analogue for that here.
i think there is.

words said
(elsewhere)
that i'm like the sun:
sometimes i warm
sometimes i illuminate
and sometimes i burn.

ouch
OUCH
what is the purpose of frustration?
to inspire one to stand up for oneself
and / or to stand up for someone else
but when the flashes are too intense
the frustration can't be used for good
and all thats to be done is blackness or burn
blackness or burn
blackness or burn
why don't people see my pain?
'cause sometimes i'm not so good at expressing
and 'cause sometimes i burn
and everyones gotta lick their own wounds.

sometimes i burn
i hurt
is it you or is it me?
boundaries dissolve and i can't see
what is the difference?
what is the difference?
what is the difference between you and me?

he says that i'm very empathetic
i'm not convinced that i'm empathetic enough
but maybe its true that i'm very empathetic to him
and why not?
his attention so focused
his hearing so tuned
whats not to empathise with that
to merge with the empathy
to feel warm and whole and safe for a while

the world hurts too much
don't leave me