crushing dread...something is terribly wrong...intense feelings of doom...extreme heaviness...panic without the energy behind it...trapped in a world completely separate from everyone else...nothing is real...totally alone...
oh wait, this horrible feeling IS reality...there is nothing I can do about it...desperate to escape but I already know there is no way out...totally unbearable but nowhere to turn...foreclosure (this is it, this is all that there is)...I could disintegrate at any moment...my whole being is screaming NO!!!!!!!