I have been seeing this guy for 4 years. The first 2 we were actually dating, but he broke up with me 2 times during that time. Once because he went to some seminar about life and career etc, and we got back together that same day. Once when he thought that his family wouldn't approve. I am 12 years older than him (33) and Mom and Dad disapprove. He has never been married and I am a widow with 2 grown boys. We broke up the third time with me 3 days before Christmas. He has this rule that he has to date someone 2 years before he decides to marry them (I don't want to get married again) and we were nearing that 2 year mark and he "panicked". Needless to say, we got back together again. We were casually seeing each other when he decided that he "might" want a family so he decided to do the "online" dating thing. I told him that I couldn't continue to sleep with him if he was going to be with someone else. He agreed and I thought it was over. Well 2 months later he shows up at my house, and one thing lead to another and we slept together. When I found out that he was seeing someone I tried desperately to end our relationship. He just kept calling and coming over and eventually wore me down. We have continued to "date" and have sex the whole time he was seeing another. I hated myself for that, but I just couldn't end it. Then 3 months ago he broke it off with the other woman, and she left town. I know that we aren't right for each other. What is it that keeps pulling us together. The chemistry between us is very strong. I have dated others, but I kept coming back to him. I keep telling myself that I need to "get him out of my system" before I can move on to someone else---WHAT DO I DO????????