It's been a long time since I've been around here. Things had been going fairly well, and all of the sudden the last couple months have turned into absolute disaster. I'm trying so hard. Mindfulness, understanding, everything. But there is a certain someone who repeatedly gets under my skin and I lose it. I started a blog with a BS identity to let my true feelings out. It's no holds barred, I'm saying exactly what is in my mind. It's highly likely to be a trigger for some, so I caution against reading it. But, I hope it becomes a good outlet for me. I've been showing lots of BPD symptoms lately and have been very aggressive and violent. I've been on the brink of total destruction. You can check it out here, only if you will be comfortable with extremely profane language and harsh statements. It's truly horrible but it's in the heat of the moment, please understand.

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