I should also point out, my psychiatrist said I need to work on that last part and define who I am. The part that sounds like I might get pleasure out of their mistakes.

I totally empathize when they make a mistake. After a life of mistakes, when I see someone make a mistake, it hurts me inside. I've made so many mistakes and even the smallest ones can hurt and, at best, be incredibly embarrassing. But at that same time I find the irony fascinating. When they mess something up or delay something important, I think, "Dammit, that sucks, but you're human and we all make mistakes... just like me. And you saw my mistakes, now I see yours."

Is that bad of me? To even find the irony interesting or even a little humorous? I don't want them to make mistakes, I don't judge them as professionals how they operate to get their work done. I want to be firm and professional with them.

My therapist has documented the whole process and said it's real and to get out. But in the meantime, I just don't need any bad karma going on right now, so I need to know how you feel about this twist at work and if it's bad that I would get any sort of pleasure in the irony not the situation itself?