I hope this is situational, because I hate going to bed feeling like this. Sometimes I feel like I'm treatment resistant and what's the point to keep trying. My pdoc wants me to be patient and give the medication a chance to have an effect. Which I understand and want to do. But when I feel like this...I just cant. And then it affects me being able to work. That's the part I HATE because I actually like my job and I get frustrated when I cant work. Taking three weeks off for PHP already robbed many of my vacation days, so I'm hesitant to take off.
I really hate two weeks happy, one or two weeks depressed.
I just needed to have my rant.
And desperately need someone to hug me. I feel so alone.