i currently am unable to get a psychiatrist/ therapist because i cant afford it... and im not going to go back to the clinic i was going to because they wouldn't listen to me...
i can't talk to anyone in my life about things because its really.. disturbing... and i dont want anyone to know that im not the strong optimistic angel that everyone sees :/

so i know how it feels not being able to get help... i went 4 years through the clinic i was going to with misdiagnosis and overmedicated and not treated for what i needed to be treated for which in my opinion compounded what is wrong with me...
but they wouldn't listen to what i was trying to say so i quit them...

its not easy when you dont have anyone to really get support from...
but im getting the little support i need to keep struggling along from here till i can get a new doctor...
my GP is scared of my mental illness and wont prescribe anything but wellbutrin... even though she knows i was taking the klonopin...

it sucks.. but we have to fight, these illnesses will try to take everything from us...
we are not the illness... its the illness that is fooling us and making us think that we have nothing to live for...

i know my words dont mean very much... but i dont want you to end it like that...
you deserve to be happy and have a fulfilling life... but because we struggle with these things we have to work extra hard... but we can be more caring and empathetic than the people that dont struggle with it...


you know the saying... just keep swimming... we'll find nemo...