Still. I've been applying for three years and still can't get the simplest job.

I keep hoping I'll get something so I can finally earn some rights and respect, finally be able to work towards deserving to live. I'm never going to be able to erase the fact that I spent almost a year on welfare, but maybe I can bury it, pay it off somehow....

I just want a simple, low-paying job to support myself. That's it. I"m begging people to let me live. I'm getting ready to start telling employers I'll kill myself if I'm not employed in the next two months, and I keep thinking I will (it likely doesn't mean anything, though. No worry).