Up and down today but that is somewhat of a misnomer since the ups consist of my anxiety taking over the lows.

Also started smoking again. It sucks things have gone from going well to bad so quickly.

For the first time in a very long time I am starting to feel lonely. I have lived a fairly isolated existence for the past few years, but it has never bothered me.

Now I am down it seems I have no-one I can truly turn to on an emotional level.