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Originally Posted by _Mouse
T ams I discussed a few weeks ago why I won't let therapy help me in one area of my life.
This weekend I say on the edge of my bed - forced my medical complication due to this area in my life - and asked myself why????
The only answer I came up with is that T isn't for ever. Why would I put all my eggs in one basket so to speak.
I blurted this out to T today. Asked her why therapy/her doesn't feel enough as it is. I feel I need more.
T said, "I think it's because you experienced such extern deprivation that they feeling of not being enough comes from a very young place. Add to that, you were made to believe you were getting enough, you were lied to ams I think you lost the abilty to trust/believe or even know what is enough.
This was one of those door knobs moments. I left it to near the end. I hope to continue Thursday.
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I'm a bit confused. What do you mean by 'not enough'? Because you also say that you seem to put all your eggs in one basket, right?
That made me think you feel as if your T is everything to you, maybe even too much. Or at least more than you seem to want her to be. But then again it's not enough?
I do think I get what your T is saying about the deprivation though. It's very hard when, as a child, we haven't had the 'right' experience of what is enough and/or good enough.
Feels like something very valuable and worth working with in your therapy