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Old Apr 18, 2016, 12:38 PM
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When I am manic, absolutely. I get stuck on people...so preoccupied with them that I can think of nothing else and want to be with them every second of the day (monopolizing their time). I contact them constantly by phone and email and try to touch and hug them as much as possible when I am around them. I also tend to fantasize about them even when that fantasy doesn't really make sense.

I do similar things with celebrities some times when I am manic. I've been obsessed with Mary Tyler Moore (and the Mary Tyler Moore show) when I was newly in high school (and my first bout with mania). I have also been obsessed with Molly Shannon, Meryl Streep, Janis Joplin, and Ani Difranco. This is followed by an extreme desire to track them down (luckily I've never done it).

I have also obsessed over emails that I have written or those written to me. I will read and reread an email, or even just one sentence from an email for hours at a time.

I also have a deep connection with music (which my pdoc claims is an obsession) as all of you know.

I have been so obsessed with the 60's that I believed I was a reincarnated hippy and part of the anti-war movement. I felt literally as if the Vietnam War was still my concern. Trigger: strong anti-war sentiments:
Possible trigger:
Later in life, I was so far to the right I supported Glen Beck. I was so hyper focused on tea party issues I could have campaigned for them. I am ridiculous!
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now

Tori Amos ~ Crucify

Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder