I pushed my t away for a few sessions after he came back from break. Eventually I managed to figure out and say to him that I was pushing him away 'cause I didn't want to feel angry at him. I didn't want to act out by punishing him or hurting him and the best way for me to safeguard from that was to emotionally withdraw from him slightly.

Is it possible that that is what is going on?

Sounds like things are repairing but that it will take some time. Hang in there.