Sunny, Mouse, Alexandra,

Is it never possible that he has to step up to the plate? Why is it all on my shoulders?
Can't he be the one who %#@&#! up? T and I talk about the push away, and we both know it's there. We even have analyzed to the point in the conversation where we know when I use a certain word, it's code for "get away from me!"

This separation has a different quality to it, it may well be a growth point but there is a feel to it that I just can't touch, a new feeling in our relationship. The thing is, I don't feel devastated, but a little flat about the whole thing. That is a little worrisome.

Actually, what I'm thinking now is that maybe it's okay to not be on the same page, to not always agree about everything. Maybe we don't have to agree on every little thing to have a relationship that works. Like T said about my anxiety last week. "Just let it flow through you like bad weather. It rained this morning, but now it's beautiful out."

Have a great day, whatever the heck that means.