I can usually express myself better than this.... I just feel blah.... I'm exhausted from doing almost nothing today. I saw my grown children over the weekend. that should help ease the pain, but it doesn't... I am reminded how my youngest son is choosing to separate himself from the family. It hurts so badly. I wish I could go back in time and raise them over again. Hopefully, I would be a different, better mom. there is no one to talk to, share with. My friends have given up on me... I've let them down too many times. I am so lonely. It is all my fault and my choices.