I think the heavy psychedelic/ecstasy abuse is taking it's toll and I'm beginning my slow descent into madness . I don't even feel alive anymore except when I'm having sex or doing drugs. At least I'm 2 months sober now; I'd imagine my score would be a lot higher if I had still been using.
Funny how my psychiatrist discharged me a couple weeks ago under the assumption that I've drastically improved. I can't even tell if I feel happy or sad about this score, honestly. I guess I need pretty serious intervention though.
Has anybody this high, assuming (hopefully) that I'm not the only one with a score in this high of a range, made any successful improvements in life? I'm beginning to lose hope my mental health will ever come back.

For the past four years I've obsessively tried to find out what was wrong with me because I'd do anything to fix whatever separates me from society to live some semblance of a happy, healthy life.