sometimes my headd spins ... trying to ignore things...
trying not to feel something... believe it doesnt it exist...
but you bounce around through emotions... quickly it turns to anger...
but it makes you sad and you comfort yourself... how can you feel like this...
im so broken i dont know what to do...
i just dont even know who i am anymore...
its painful...
what is the point...? the only point i have is to preserve the mirage that my family perceives... i can't disrupt their lives because i dont have one... why cause more pain...
but it seems inevitable...




then i remember that i dont remember what or why i was feeling like that...
i hate flashbacks...


sorry... im just really tired...
i dont like this... and just feel like i have been fighting it too long...