Hi everyone! I'm listening to the audio book of No More Mr. Nice Guy by Dr. Robert A Glover, am at around the midpoint and realised something upset me greatly. When I go anywhere with a lot of girls, I could literally want to go out with maybe half of them. It might be because I haven't had a girlfriend in 15 years and I never thought I would say this one day but I think there are too many beautiful girls for me. loll I'm really in need of affection, I admit it, though it's uncomfortable and I feel, if I dropped my guard, took down the walls I built to protect me, I could fall in love with anyone. That upset me terribly. I took 2 years to re-build myself, make peace with my chaotic childhood and re-learn what it meant to live fully, re-learn who I was and I never been as happy ...but I'm afraid of falling in love with the wrong person, of losing my time. I'm in a period of great changes and I believe my need of affection affect my judgement so how am I supposed to do the right choice when my judgement is altered? If I wasn't so much in need of affection, I wouldn't be looking for a girlfriend, I'd let things happen and I'm confident I'd get a girlfriend, eventually, I read a lot on the subject and I understand the concepts. But it is not the case and I'm so much in need of affection, a beautiful manipulative girl would kiss me out of the blue at the gym and I'd fall in love with her, 100%! I'm really hurting because on one front, I see all the progress I made, I literally changed my life and myself and it makes me really proud but on the other front, I see a cliff and I fear losing everything.

Anyone can help me? I feel like I'm so close of my goal, that is, to obtain the affection I so clearly lack but yet, I'm so far...

Thanks!