the problem is that i am journaling, and it's just me journaling. they have never written really..maybe years ago.

i have never told the psychiatrist names of any, and she really knows nothing about any of them to call them by name or anything, etc., so i figured if any of the ones with names i know of do say something, it would actually really be them and not a random one. at least, that would be my hope.

the reason i am considering doing this is because there is really no communication, yet they are causing a lot of struggles for me the last few months, and i do not know how else to deal with things without communication because it is getting very difficult functioning wise, etc.

they do not take over, so there are no random things i find like writings or anything. though with the dissociation, the memories during it are very fuzzy if they are still known at all over a few hours or days later.

the others do exist, but they seem to not be able to communicate or talk like they used to be able to. i can feel things that are stuck. i know they want and need to talk, but there is a huge block/barrier that didn't exist years ago that does now.

i don't know who i would contact in canada because there doesn't seem to be as many resources for this as there is in the US. it is very rare to even find a professional who believes in DID to begin with.

i would think it would be more an issue if a person had no known history of symptoms or alters or any trauma memories at all that did this and then ended up with it. that would definitely make me think it was therapist induced.

but since i have struggled my entire life with known symptoms and alters as well as several corroborated (and some partial) full trauma memories, it could still hopefully be done safely without inducing false memories or alters, etc.