Hi. I know I'm depressed, but I used to at least pretend I could function. I'm tired. I eat. I avoid new things I want to do. It's not all bad. I went for a 3 mile hike today and yesterday. I'm not around people a lot though, I'm pretty solitary, and that's not how I enjoy living my life. Ive been dwelling on negative stuff that shouldn't matter. I don't have a job and can't see how I can work unless I start feeling better. I used to think it was my fault. Like, maybebthe way I was thinking or behaving was causing me to be depressed. It seems like all the self help books say that lately. After being on wellbutrin for.a month though, then going back to lexapro, I experienced some changes during that time, and I dunno.

I would like to go on a different med. And in the meantime, not be too hard on myself. And do what I can. But yeah, not be too hard on myself.