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Originally Posted by jrae
I'm so sorry that this is going on! please believe me that I know what you are going thru. family sucks when a person has a MI and no one understands (or even makes it worse). I went thru the same sh** with mine. I even had to move back in with my parents for a few years. that was a new level of he** that no one with an MI should have to go thru!
I hid my MI from everyone for as long as I could. then when I couldn't anymore (partly due to car accident injuries), I think it really shocked them. but I still 'pretend' around them all the time.
the first time I told my family I couldn't do something (was while I still lived with my rents and it was a family xmas I missed), it was almost the hardest thing I've ever done. but maybe for the first time they got a 'glimpse' at the he** I go thru.
now I just keep it all to myself. they won't be able to understand, and it just hurts me more each time I tried to explain it to them. so I stopped - had to protect myself. that did NOT sit well with them, but I had to for me. I still struggle with that, not falling victim to their questions and ambushes and toxic-ness.
I'm like the black-black-sheep in my family. I have my two parents, three siblings, two are married and the third will be this summer, and three nephews/nieces. and even my aunt is shocked and surprised at how poorly they all treat me. I don't even talk to my one BIL - don't want to cuz of his actions. I wouldn't even talk to or visit two of my siblings if they didn't have kids!
it all sucks. the he** we go thru makes us almost unrelateable. (like a leper or something) and I've been dealing with this over half my life. 
and so... if you live in the usa, there are state and government programs that can help you. hang in there though, I know it's tough!
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thanks for your thoughts
However, the pretending that I referred to was along the lines of me giving a ***** about them, not about my MI.