(and this is NOT a SUI post).

What do you do if you wish you were dead (but aren't planning on making that happen)? But you wish (with every fibre of your being) that you were, ya know.....not here. Gone.

You have a job, bills to pay, one friend you can see on a semi-consistent basis, couple of other friends you hardly ever see for various reasons (geography, their life situations, etc.) no life partner and you feel like shyte about yourself so no interest in trying to find one, and you really, really, REALLY see absolutely no point in your existence and want an END to the struggle, strife and pain in your life. And meds don't do diddly. And you're not getting any younger.

What do you do? - And I'm asking this in all seriousness. Thanks.