i didnt intend to have an overly simplistic post... im just really drained...
i try to consider a placebo effect for some works... sometimes sharing things with someone can help some move on... cbt might be better for anxiety than depression i think... but i dunno, i cant remember any of my sessions...
so clearly it didnt help me.. but i fight myself alot...
but i have no choice but to do some kind of therapy because of the type of issues...
i just think that therapy might be better to try first before trying loads of medications...
i have ALOT of "crazy" thoughts too... actually i have full blown arguements with myself... i dunno, i have a lot of internal conflict... i didnt mean to sound like therapy will cure things... or that it will make the thoughts simply stop...
thoughts, intrusive thoughts, are hard to get power over... i apologize...
my condition is just making it hard for doctors to properly treat me... apparently they are having a problem figuring me out... i guess im just complicated

i tend to undermine alot of things when talking... i didnt mean a little work as in a little... just that it will take dedication...
i need to stop posting for a while... im of no use like this...
i dont consider your response an attack... i clearly was vague...
nothing has worked for me....

keep fighting to get well...
much love..