Done the diet, exercise, supplements, herbs. Up north had too much depression, too many hospitalizations. Down south now too much sun n the bipolar swings really show. Meditation causes auditory hallucinations n increased anxiety, won't go into the reasons why here. Meds are the only way I can function n for therapy to help me. No, I don't like taking the meds but without them I would already be dead. I have absolutely no life med free. No ability to function. I am becoming more stable again, hopefully for awhile n I can think n my creativity is coming back to me n I am feeling some motivation. Don't have that without meds.