hi...
You know I have my own struggles with thoughts of this nature.. and no you are not hurting me or triggering me..

You have always been there in my posts being supportive and kind.. and I have never told you how much they mean to me.. I am telling you now.. thank you..

And these thoughts and feelings come upon us.. yes they do.. and they are so very difficult.. I just wish I had wonderful answers for the both of us.. I have care and love that I give you.. these are important to me and I hope important to you.

I certainly have understanding.. boy do I.. lots of understanding...the friend thing.. having to say "I'm OK"... but wanting to say "but I'm not OK"...

Posting here.. for me is a relief.. to have people like you and others where I can say "this is how I feel.. unvarnished.. and the truth" and still be accepted..to feel the love and care of people such as yourself - keeps me going.. I am not really sure where I would be.. if I didn't have the people in this forum.. it is so important to me.. for the first time in my life, I have found people that understand.. so what I am saying is that you.. are very important to me and I want you to be here on this earth...though feeling better...as I also want to feel better...

If you feel that there is someone in your family that would understand or friends.. reach out to them... I have with my best friend.. and though she doesn't "understand" the depth of my depression.. I know she cares.. and that helps..

I will always be here.. listening and supporting... for you.