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Originally Posted by elevatedsoul
i didnt intend to have an overly simplistic post... im just really drained...
i try to consider a placebo effect for some works... sometimes sharing things with someone can help some move on... cbt might be better for anxiety than depression i think... but i dunno, i cant remember any of my sessions...
so clearly it didnt help me.. but i fight myself alot...
but i have no choice but to do some kind of therapy because of the type of issues...
i just think that therapy might be better to try first before trying loads of medications...
i have ALOT of "crazy" thoughts too... actually i have full blown arguements with myself... i dunno, i have a lot of internal conflict... i didnt mean to sound like therapy will cure things... or that it will make the thoughts simply stop...
thoughts, intrusive thoughts, are hard to get power over... i apologize...
my condition is just making it hard for doctors to properly treat me... apparently they are having a problem figuring me out... i guess im just complicated 
i tend to undermine alot of things when talking... i didnt mean a little work as in a little... just that it will take dedication...
i need to stop posting for a while... im of no use like this...
i dont consider your response an attack... i clearly was vague...
nothing has worked for me....
keep fighting to get well...
much love.. |
I'm sorry if I seemed to have attacked you. I didn't mean anything personal. I'm in a crying jag now.
Nothing has worked for me, either. Don't think that you should stop posting, though. Just coming here and being with other screwed up people brings me a level of comfort, sick as that may sound. I get far more comfort when you write "nothing has worked for me" because it makes me feel less alone.
And I have exactly the same feeling about my just-fired mental health team: I did my best to tell them what was going on but they didn't understand; I felt like either I wasn't making myself understood or that they didn't want to understand. Or maybe because I'm so all over the place that I don't fit in any one billing code completely and too much in others.
In 10 days I go to see my new psychiatrist. I'm placing too much hope in her, I know. There must be something better. 20+ pdocs refused to continue to treat me psych meds if I continued treatment for chronic pain. I'm still having problems understanding that. It makes me want to take a red-hot branding iron and put it to their face and ask if they'd like an aspirin.
I'm losing it again. Got to go.