I am so sorry that this happened in your life.... and getting mixed up in the love/sex combination.. that happens to many and is so painful in of itself.. the legacy of what happened to us.. the ones that have been abused...
I wish and pray for healing for all of us in this forum.
I also, have started to get angry.. at the people that have hurt us.. have hurt our current life with their actions in our past..
Sending healing thoughts your way...