I'm trying so hard to stay level. I think I am still angry about the comment but I know that they did not mean anything by it and did not mean to hurt me so I was not too bad today. I just stayed at my desk and tried to work this morning. Heading into my program in a bit.

HP I am very sorry to hear it sound like people have been judging you and pushing you away not the other way around. I hope you found a satisfactory place to be but also hope that it holds hope for improvement. i've always been alone but I'd never been lonely until I I thought I had found a relationship. I feel very fortunate that after ten years and a reconcilliation that person is now my best friend and best support along with his wife equally so. They aren't close but I talk to them on the phone when I can and see them occassionally. I don't ahve to pretend I'm not depressed with them.