im hoping when i get a new doc/therapist they will be able to help with that stuff..

i used to be really smart and able to learn really fast.. they kept putting me in advanced placement classes and treating me like some prodigy but... i mean i guess im not stupid... but i dont have any memory anymore...
the psychologist said that alot of my issues seem psychological... and if the depression and anxiety gets better then alot of the other stuff should get better...
he said that i have high functioning adhd... and im just guessing that the cognitive issue thing is psychosomatic... im hoping so atleast..
i just wish that i could get a doc that would work with me to really explore the things over a period of time so could really pinpoint the issues... kind of tired of evaluations that keep changing a diagnosis and not really giving any help to whats going on... from different people ya know..

just hate feeling like im getting older and older and worse and worse... i haven't been able to live because of stupid problems
didnt really have a childhood.. abused substances and stuff through teens trying to cover up problems... being 26 i feel like i still need to get to know myself and it just seems like i should be way ahead by now from where i am - but maybe it will be ok...
just hate thinking i'll turn 30 and feel like a 10 year old that doesnt know myself.. if that makes sense