Hello Asuyuka. I am sorry for the struggle that you are having at this time. Are you seeing a therapist? If so you should call your therapist and talk to them about the fact that you are in a suicidal position so possibly your meds can be changed, and you can get the help you need at this time. If there is a delay in seeing the therapist today call a friend and get out of the house for a bit so you can get away for a bit, or go for a walk to help you feel better. take care.PM anytime. Soidhonia