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Originally Posted by splitimage
I'm feeling really bad, both emotionally and physically. I relapsed yesterday, and drank a bottle of whiskey.
Was sick as a dog all night and still feel really awful this morning.
I hate that I keep doing this to myself.
Ok -so starting over.
splitimage
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I did this last week....and when I saw your post today I asked myself WHY..when we know we are going to feel HORRIBLE..with emotion and physical...do we KEEP doing it?
Because, when I am doing it...I feel a reprieve from every problem, every ache and pain...everything there is...and that is why I do it.
My fear is always...will I carry on for ever or 28 days...or till I die?
I never can just drink 1 day...its always 2..and usually if I go by 2...it takes a hospital visit to bring me back to life..since I don't eat....when I drink. I went 28 days last time and drank vodka for 28 days.
I hope you are feeling better today and not drinking. And want you to understand...that someone else understands.