As a child i was fearful. We lived on a huge 440 acre farm and there was so much going on it got to be overwhelming. I grew up and moved away and then i feared less. But there are moments i think back or dwell on something. It is a horrible experience and i feel for you. I only know that i love up my cat or talk to someone on the net or phone and i feel better. Do what you must and it will pass (((hugs))) blessings and tc