(((MOUSE))). I am sorry for your struggles at this time. I am sure that has brought a lot of standstills in you getting the therapy you deserve since you are waiting for someone else to harm you in some manner and that you will be violated again by someone in the medical profession. It is very hard to trust when you are violated by someone at such a young age, and do not see things in black and white on whether or not you were violated, and dont understand the situation and feel alone that no one was there to protect you because no one knew what was happening to the children from this woman. What happened was wrong this is not acceptable behavior from the (so called Dr) and I think B**ch was a good observation for the person and so is the word Pedophile(child molestor). I hope things get better for you soon Mouse. Just because it happened does not mean that you are wrong in feeling and thinking you were violated because that is what happened. Being invalidated is the worst form of misery and confusion, and I hate that you have lived with this question on your mind for so long. I hope your therapist can help you feel validated again in your need to feel okay in being angry and feeling your own feelings until you can feel better again. Take care PM anytime Mouse. I can use the word B**ch every now and again as well it doesnt bother me at all. Its good to be truthful and if the shoe fits why not tell it like it really is Right is just that Right. WE may know the same people. Take care and best wishes (((MOUSE))). Soidhonia.