Just checked out your blog. You write well. We have some things in common, except I'm managing to work and am kidding myself it's all OK. I don't want to think about reality too often. I admire some of the things you've done, like go with the emotional flow. No way I'd do that unless I've had a few. Gin is mine. Whiskey gives me a headache and vodka makes me sick fast. It used to be beer, wine or cider but the ABV wasn't high enough. It would is so hard. I hope you are feeling better.