Hello Fan. I am sorry for your struggles that you are having at this time. Have you spoken to your therapist about your situation so your therapist can help you regain some composure for your problem? Going to a Gym may help as well to help you fell hungrier so you can validate the eating of food and you feel like you are a healthier person. The american Diabetes Association site offers meal planning as well so you can consume fewer calories but still get the nutrition you need. I hope things get better for you soon Fan. Take care. Soidhonia