Hello Forklift. I am very sorry for the loss of your wife. There are chats at Psych CEntral periodically and you are more than welcome to attend any chat when someone is in the chat room. Seeing a therapist may be in order if you are not feeling better soon. Loss can bring on depression as well as other physical symptoms. when you are up to it you may want to get a physical and a mental health evaluation for therapy and meds that can help the depression. Take care and good day. Soidhonia