For me i don't have the things i was wearing at the time. My rapist was my boy friend at the time. I had some of his t-shirts, a jacket, a key to his car, I still have them. I still wear the t-shirts, my fiance knows if i have on one of those shirts it's a day i just need space. I've gone to therapy , and she knows i have the things and as long as it's not hurting me or causing me pain it's ok. The things that hurt me to look at or see. I took them to the beach and set them on fire. I'm sorry that your having trouble with flashbacks they suck.