I'm not quite sure how to approach what I need to relay. I've been terribly lost in two week cycles of depression for almost 7 years now. I'm a young adult, so I'm trying to seek help by finding likeminded people who can perhaps give me some advice.

I am deeply afraid of pushing people away, people I love. I see it in the over analyzing habits of mine. It scares me. I am unsure how to flip the switch to make it better. Many times I sit and stare off, and I feel so heavy with despair, and I'm Not sure why. It makes people I care about worry.

I feel that my fear of abandonment on top of my depressive nature, is going to lead me into certain loneliness.

Please, does anyone have any personal advice?