I haven't been here in this forum for a long time. I come back to read posts very occasionally, and that helps me sometimes. Just wanted to say to anyone that remembers me that I'm actually doing very good. But, it's good to vent off some feelings from time to time to make sure you don't fall back into depression.

I wrote this up not too long ago:

I'm the person who's always in the background.

I'm the one whose endless problems have made them act flawless inside and out.

I'm the one who many know, but no one befriends.

I'm the one whose fault it is that they don't connect with anyone else.

I'm the one who's so withdrawn that you have no idea what they're thinking.

I'm the one that seems like a plain doll, so doesn't get empathy.

I'm the one so repressed to not get anyone's way that I can't even tell who I am anymore.

I'm the one who's always guilty, like a toy that hurt a child.

I'm the one who was rejected from normal life, so my mind and emotions evolved completely isolated, creating an alien of a person.

This is how I feel sometimes.