(((VIXEN))). I am sorry that you are struggling with all of this all at once. It is good that you are sharing your story here at this time. It is sad that you had to endure all of this pain in your post from your father and the other issues as well that you have been through. I hope that you will one day be able to tell your therapist what happened so you can get the help you need. First of all nothing that happened is your fault, although you are left with so many scars to heal from all of the events. Just try to take things one day at a time and get the support you need when needed. Take care Vixen. Soidhonia