It just feels so surreal right now. In one way I kind of feel like, If it was true wouldn't I have caught on earlier? But then I think about it and it doesn't take any real depth of investigation to see that it's been there all along, even as a child. I kept waiting for my body to change to accommodate how I felt and it never did. Then there's a thought like 'Oh I'm too old to transition though, and do I even want to transition, and how the hell do I even figure this stuff out?' But I started reading a book called 'Becoming a Visible Man' by Jamison Green - I just started reading it today and I'm almost halfway through. It is SO GOOD. And when he finally began his physical transition he was just a few years older than me. So it gives me hope. Right now I'm just going to try to focus on the sensations in my body with each added awareness and discovery, how I am experiencing my gender and my identity.

The ironic thing is that my wife is trans! So I have plenty of support, and we both are well situated socially within the trans community so I have that as well. I've told a couple of my non-trans, non-queer friends and family members just to see how it would feel to say it out loud and they're both supportive as well.

I didn't even think about the fact that there was a PC forum though. I'm glad there is.