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You could call it flight of ideas yes. Conviction (be it expressed somewhat polemically) as well. But I am not sure I'm completely right (it's unlikely) and I appreciate arguments that dispel my beliefs, people questioning them.
I still wake up depressed and I'm somewhat vulnerable during the day but all those mania-like things are (quite deliberately, as I don't hold back those personality traits, such as impulsivity) very ingrained in all of me.
It is associations and flight of ideas, conviction and impulsivity. Quite chronically me.
I am serious and believe in what I say but I don't take it too seriously.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide.
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