I become irritable when i am asked to many questions or any questions at all (i feel like biting the persons head off, no joke) i hate when people say stupid or do dumb things. I come off as very rude and *****y to my friends and family at random times (even when theyve done nothing to me). The slightess things tick me off. I can get angry at the snap of a finger and then be extermely happy again right after, and it goes back and forth untill the person becomes annoyed with me. Sometimes i get too happy, or just completely shut down. People are constantly asking "are you okay" and ask if im upset. I have constant headaches. I think about suicide almost everyday. I hate myself, and dont like my family. Men take advantage of me. I feel worthless and empty and when i get a substance, i use as much of ot as possible to feel better. When i get alcohol, i down as much of it as possible, and wait for the effect of marijuana to feel high and careless.. I dont tell people about my issues ( no one truely listens to me) its stays bottle up inside me. I feel anxious at times, like my hearts racing, with my thoughts. My worse fear is being alone for long periods of time with no one to talk to. I feel like crying 24/7.