I think both these terms suggest you are to blame for these love/hate feelings, whereas I think they are quite probably the result of inconsistent therapy, which is not your fault.
I don't want to take away any from your positive experience in therapy this week Mona, but it reminds me very much of the 'healing' sessions I would have with T1. His loving kindness was all the more powerful and potent because it could be taken away, and for me was just another twist on the unhealthy rollercoaster of therapy with him.
I really hope if you continue with this therapist, she can become more consistent in her treatment of you.