Beth,

I think I know some of the feelings you are going through. I know that there are things that happen or experiences that I have in my life that jog my thinking & I know that I will never be the same again. When things like that happen, it makes me aware that I am in need of some serious changes.......but what are they???? What is the experience trying to tell me????

When this happens, I realize that God has planted a seed in my mind....letting me know that I am in need of something. This is when I have to open my mind.....my thoughts.....& let things take shape. I have found that this can take years......months......days.....hours...minutes. I never know when the right answer will come to me. I try to be open to many different thoughts (which at times can be totally confusing). But in the long run, I can usually define what it is that is bothering me & then end up defining several different options of how to take care of the problem.

When I had all my alone time while in KY.....that was when I was able to look back at my life & see how this occured throughout my life. Sometimes we need that alone time to look into our thoughts without being interrupted by the things that are constantly bothering us. Unfortunately, that alone time is sometimes difficult to have.....but it is important because it is then when we can hear our thoughts more clearly.

It is important to give yourself the time that you need to define what you need to deal with & then how to deal with it.....but remember....that can take a lot of time. I personally believe that God guides me during these times.....continuing to give me the thoughts necessary to do the things necessary to continue living the life he has given me. I pray that you will hold on & gain strength each day until you are provided with the thoughts that will guide you to know what you have to deal with & then how to deal with it.

I hope this makes some kind of sense. It is something that only my alone time gave me insight into in my own life....doesn't mean it's the answer for everyone.
My prayers are with you,
Debbie