My story is a lot different from yours. I wasn't bullied much at school and I don't consider myself ugly or unattractive. I am 57 and I have only had sex once. I was in a LTR with someone but it was an unusual relationship. We had some sexual intimacy early on but it ended after a couple of months and after that there was no intimacy at all.

I dated a couple of girls when I was around 18 - 19 and had interest from other girls during my teen years too. But after a while when I got to the age when I might have been dating women old enough to have sex with women disappeared from my life.

I never smoked or drank and never socialized very much. I spent most of my life alone. I'm very shy around people and especially women. The high school I went to was an all boys school and the jobs I' ve had were all male dominated,so I wasn't around women very much. There have been odd occasions when I was around females and after being around them awhile I was able to talk to them and become friends but they were always married or with someone else.

I too have dealt with small penis problems. Not so much physical ones but more psychological ones. Now I'm 57 with one sexual experience to my name and not much chance of another. At my age with erectile dysfunction issues and my lack of experience and size worries I don't see much chance of ever being with a woman.

My biggest problem is the regret I feel at not having the experience of dating girls when I was younger. I love young women so much and it literally makes me sick to my stomach knowing I will never get to experience that. I feel like life just passed me by.

I've had thoughts of suicide for about 30 years now. In fact I don't think about anything as much as I have killing myself.

It does make me smile when I read guys saying "I'm 20 and still a virgin" only 20? you have a long way to go to catch up with me.