Lol my fault i worded that terribly, they were completely separate thoughts in one post. They were both on my mind so i just did it in one thread. The substance abuse has nothing to do with being a terrible person. I have drug/alcohol problems myself, i just see how much a change in diet, drugs, exercise, etc affects my mood so it's very important to monitor this stuff. I do drugs for pretty much the same reasons as you mentioned, basically better than killing myself. My point with MI is, that it's not okay to treat others like garbage and not take responsibility for it and just blame it on how you are, or blame someone else for making you like that. I only bring it up because people in my life are like that and it's been pissing me off, i don't know if anyone on here is like that or not, but i just wanted to bring it up because it's a terrible trait.